* Author’s note: This poem was inspired by Mayim Bialik, a Modern Orthodox Jew, star of “The Big Bang Theory,” whose character Amy said, “I don’t object to the concept of a deity, but I am baffled by the notion of one that takes attendance.”
by Mel Glenn (Brooklyn, NY)
In my constant back-and-forth with God,
throwing questions up at the sky,
I do not expect answers,
but would be appeased by some sign
that my queries are at least received.
What if I obey 612 rules instead of 613?
What if I hold one Seder, not two?
What if I do not go to shul
each and every Saturday?
Does God have to take attendance?
I have a lot more than Four Questions.
Do I need the decisions of rabbis
to tell me how to run my life?
Do I need the voices of the congregation
to emphasize the fact I am a Jew?
Does a faithful adherence to ritual
bring me closer to the presence of God?
Does He even care?
God, it’s me, Mel.
Are you even listening?
I am standing outside the synagogue
wondering if my attendance is required.
Is it mandatory I attend, or is it good
enough that I remain standing humbly,
asking my questions in Your sight?
Mel Glenn, the author of twelve books for young adults, is working on a poetry book about the pandemic tentatively titled Pandemic, Poetry, and People. He has lived nearly all his life in Brooklyn, NY, where he taught English at A. Lincoln High School for thirty-one years. You can find his most recent poems in the YA anthology, This Family Is Driving Me Crazy, edited by M. Jerry Weiss. If you’d like to learn more about his work, visit: http://www.melglenn.com/