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How I See God: In the Breath, the Body, and the Movement of the World

By Alvin Raúl Cardona (Northfield, IL)

People often ask me where I feel closest to God. Of course, one of the main places is in my synagogue, when praying with a minyan, and when I’m surrounded by community. But outside of that, I also feel deeply connected to God when I’m practicing Kung Fu, when I’m teaching a student to move and breathe with intention. When the body, mind, and spirit are aligned in a single, purposeful act. During these times, I feel the Divine clearly, powerfully, in the breath, in the body, and in the beat of the world around me.

I didn’t always have the words for it. As a young martial artist, I simply knew something was happening beneath the surface, something deeper than technique or strength. I felt a current, a presence, a kind of electricity running through me. With time, and through learning with my rabbi, I discovered a name for it: “Ein Sof”, the Infinite. God’s light. God’s energy. The Life Force that sustains all things. It changed how I moved, how I teach, and how I live.

How I See God

So how do I see God in daily life?

I see God in the morning when I’m wrapping my tefillin.

I see God when I say Shema Israel, but I also see God in the way the afternoon sunlight hits the floor of my studio.
I see God in the breath of a nervous student who finally finds calm.
I see God in the stillness after training Kung Fu, when the body is at rest but the soul is wide awake.

This is why I teach. Not just to show people how to defend themselves, but to help them reconnect with what’s already inside them: their breath, their balance, their light, their soul. To remind them that they are vessels of sacred energy, a vessel that houses the Divine spark within.

Moving with purpose helps deepen that connection. It’s important that we connect with the Divine and awaken our inner sense of being.

God Is in Everything and Everywhere

In Jewish thought, we don’t believe God is confined to one place or one moment. God is everywhere and in everything, in every place, in every moment, and in every breath.

I believe that our role as Jews is to bring holiness into the world. We need to just stop for a moment and be fully present. Think about what we’re about to do, and if possible, say a blessing over it. Whether you’re about to eat something, go on a trip, or you’ve just woken up in the morning, stop, and make it holy. That simple act of awareness can transform an ordinary moment into something special.

When we pause and say a blessing over bread, over wine or over the washing of our hands, we’re not just performing ritual, we’re awakening the Divine energy already present in the moment. We’re recognizing that holiness isn’t something distant. It’s right here, if we’re paying attention.

The same applies to movement. When I step onto the training floor, it’s not just to work out. I take a minute and I make a blessing. As Jews, we have blessings for everything. I stop and I thank God for allowing me another day to train. I especially don’t take this for granted after undergoing quintuple bypass heart surgery.

(Here’s the link to that story if you’d like to take a peek: Tai Chi for Healing: My Journey to Recovery After Open-Heart Surgery)

After that blessing, I become more aware of the space around me and my movements. Focusing on the present and recognizing that Ha Kadosh Baruch Hu (The Holy One, Blessed be He) is always present.   

The Body

Too often, people separate the spiritual from the physical, as if God belongs only to the mind or the soul. But the Torah tells us that God breathed life into us. Not ideas but breath.

In Hebrew, the word for soul is Neshamah, which comes from Nasham to breathe.

That breath lives in the body. So, when I stretch my limbs, when I feel my feet grounded to the earth and my spine rising tall like a tree, I’m not just doing Kung Fu, I’m recognizing that this body is a vessel for something holy. That movement itself can be a form of connection, a way to align with the Divine energy flowing through all things.

This is about awareness. You can call it energy, Divine presence, consciousness, or chi. What matters is that you feel it. That you tune into it. That you allow it to guide your movements and open your heart.

Sometimes, you just have to inhale deeply, exhale slowly, and remember you are alive and that the Divine spark is within you.

Flowing

In Kung Fu, there’s a moment when everything clicks. You’re not thinking. You’re not forcing. You’re just flowing. The breath steadies you. The world quiets down. And in that silence, you feel it, that presence, that light, that flow.

That’s a connection to something greater than oneself.

The Divine is not always loud. Sometimes, it’s as soft as the space between your breaths.

Wisdom

As a Sephardic Jew, I see the world through the stories of great Kabbalists, Rabbis, and the members in our community. Their teachings have been passed down through generations to guide us.

Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan once wrote that meditation “loosens the bond of the physical, allowing the practitioner to reach the transcendental, spiritual realm and attain Ruach HaKodesh (Holy Breath or Wind).” In many ways, this is exactly what happens when movement and breath become unified in practice. It’s not just exercise, it’s a doorway to something higher.

The Ramban (Nachmanides) taught that a person should “not separate his consciousness from the Divine while he journeys on the way, nor when he lies down nor when he rises up.” To me, this means our entire lives, from our most sacred rituals to our smallest routines can be filled with Divine energy.

The challenge is to stay aware. To remember.

That’s the essence of Kung Fu.
That’s the path of Torah.
Constant refinement. Constant connection.
Making the ordinary holy.

So the next time you ask where to find God, try this:

Close your eyes.
Take a slow breath in.
Feel your body as it is in this moment.
And listen, not for a voice, but for the stillness beneath all sound.

That’s where God lives.
Right there.
In the breath.
In the body.
In the beat of the world.

Alvin Raúl Cardona is a Sephardic Jewish storyteller, martial artist, and sommelier from Chicago. He holds a B.A. in Communication, Media, and Theatre and a Master’s in Journalism. A 9th-generation Eagle Claw Kung Fu master, he teaches Tai Chi, Kung Fu, and meditation in Northfield, Illinois, and is currently writing a self-healing book based on the principles of Tai Chi and meditation.

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Is God at my diner?

By Mel Glenn (Brooklyn, NY)

This Rosh Hashonah

I did not go to services.

I did not pray 

with the congregation.

I did not walk 

up to the Ark.

Instead, I went for my morning coffee

at the local diner.

Was this a crisis of faith?

I don’t think so.

God sat at the next table over

watching me, making sure

I was all right.

He’s OK with me 

ordering my usual fare

while I assure Him 

my belief is constant and true,

whether I’m reading a

prayer book or a menu.

The practice of religion

may be communal,

but it is also deeply personal,

I think, as I sip my hot coffee

and know with certainty

that in the coming Yom Kippur

I will be inscribed

wherever I happen to be.

Mel Glenn, the author of twelve books for young adults, is working on a poetry book about the pandemic tentatively titled Pandemic, Poetry, and People. He has lived nearly all his life in Brooklyn, NY, where he taught English at A. Lincoln High School for thirty-one years. You can find his most recent poems in the YA anthology, This Family Is Driving Me Crazy, edited by M. Jerry Weiss. If you’d like to learn more about his work, visit: http://www.melglenn.com/

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Unetaneh Tokef

by Theresa Werba (Spring City, PA)

Oh God, I am so afraid.

The future looms before me, unknown.

I fear what I do not know,

cannot know.

I fear your power over my fate.

You’re going to judge me, so I must speak of the

sacred power of this day.

I pray for mercy and truth,

because you are the judge

who knows, and sees all.

What will you write, and seal?

How will you record, and count?

What will you remember, of all 

I have forgotten?

I love books, but the Book of Remembrance

I fear, as it reads itself aloud.

What will I hear?

What has my hand signed?

The sound of remembrance!

The shofar— loud, penetrating,

piteous, strong, strange,

elemental, earthy, and

yet of spirit— but within myself

will I hear your still, small voice?

Will I rush forth with angels,

seized with trembling and terror

as they proclaim, “Behold, The Day of Judgment”?

Will I be judged as angels?

Will you judge me as a shepherd does

his sheep, passing, counting, numbering,

decreeing my living soul, my nefesh,

its destiny?

B’Rosh Hashanah yikateivun,

Uv’Yom Tzom Kippur yechateimun.

Oh righteous God,

will I live? Will I die?

Do I have an appointed time?

Will I drown? Will fire consume me?

Will I be stabbed? Will an animal destroy me?

Will I starve? Will I die of thirst?

Will the earth shake? Will malady decimate me?

Will I be stoned? Or burned?

Will life be peaceful, or will I suffer more?

Will I be poor, or rich?

Will I be brought low, or raised up?

I worry about all these things, and yet,

You give me some control over my fate,

because I can turn to you, pray to you,

and do good in the world,

wherein you may alter the course,

alleviate the punishment,

change the decree of my future.

And so I stand, expectantly,

in the New Year,

knowing that I have atoned,

trusting in your judgments,

though I do not understand them, or you, or why.

And I try to be less afraid of the future.

B’Rosh Hashanah yikateivun,

Uv’Yom Tzom Kippur yechateimun.

Theresa Werba is the author of eight books, including What Was and Is: Formal Poetry and Free Verse (Bardsinger Books, 2024), Finally Autistic: Finding My Autism Diagnosis as a Middle-Aged Female (Bardsinger Books, 2024) and Sonnets, a collection of 65 sonnets (Shanti Arts, 2020). Her work has appeared in such journals as The Scarlet Leaf Review, The Wilderness House Literary Review, Spindrift, Mezzo Cammin, The Wombwell Rainbow, Fevers of the Mind, The Art of Autism, Serotonin, The Road Not Taken, and the Society of Classical Poets Journal. Her work ranges from forms such as the ode and sonnet to free verse, with topics ranging from neurodivergence, love, loss, aging, to faith and disillusionment and more.  She also has written on adoption and abuse/domestic violence. Werba is the joyful mother of six children and grandmother to seven. Theresa holds a Master of Music with distinction in voice pedagogy and performance from Westminster Choir College and is known for her dramatic poetry readings. She is a member of Beth Israel Congregation in Eagle, Pennsylvania where she will be singing “Aveinu, Malkeinu” for the high holidays. 

You can find more about Theresa Werba and her work at www.theresawerba.com and on social media and YouTube @thesonnetqueen. 

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The Lord is My Shepherd 

by Rick Black (Arlington, VA)

I shall want to know one day

why God made hurricanes and floods – 

and rested on the seventh day.

I shall want to know one day

why God sent down famine and disease – 

and rested on the seventh day.

I shall want to know one day 

why God rested on the seventh day

but did not grant us any rest.

Rick Black is an award-winning book artist and poet. His artist books are represented in private and public collections, including the Library of Congress, Yale University and the U.S. Holocaust Memorial Museum. A journalist for many years, Rick’s poetry collection, Star of David, won Poetica Magazine’s 2012 poetry chapbook contest for contemporary Jewish writing. A reading of Star of David was held in the Middle Eastern & African Division of the Library of Congress. He recently published a new collection, Two Seasons in Israel: A Selection of Peace and War Haiku.

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I Said the Words

by Herbert Munshine (Great Neck, NY)

I said the prayer for a very long year
to remember my mother
(as if I could forget)
to honor her
(as if I needed to)
to show my love for her
(as if that was the so official way
as if that could replace the feeling
fading just too quickly from my mind).

I journeyed to the synagogue
one vacant block from where my father worked
and sat with bearded ancient men
who shared a musty smell
with the hall which they inhabited,
who sought responsibility to guide the child
that I was and would forever be.

I listened to the words of the Kaddish
spoken quite precisely in a foreign tongue
a phrase at a time
and then I found myself repeating sounds
that had no meaning and no substance to me,
but it was my job, as I was told
(as if I had a choice).

And so I went, day by day, and I obeyed
and parroted the words
but never had the chance to say
the words that needed to be said,
about the ties we’d had, my mom and I,
about the caring that we knew
and love and strong security
now shattered — and the joy
of helping her whenever she put on
that apron and began to cook
from European scratch.

I said the words that were my duty,
words so alien to me
with men so distant from my needs
but with each word I mispronounced and mumbled
was the childhood-crafted
realization of what I no longer had
but needed very much.

I said the prayer
but wondered in my elemental way
why any God could be so cruel
to cleave a mother from a child
and substitute the words that had no meaning
to my soul.

Herbert Munshine grew up in the Bronx and graduated from C.C.N.Y. with both a B.S. in Education and a Master’s Degree in English. You can find his baseball poetry on Baseball Bard where he has had more than 100 poems published, and where he was recently inducted into that site’s Hall of Fame. He lives with his wife in Great Neck, NY.

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Challah

by Miriam Flock (Palo Alto, CA)

My hands fondle the dough, as a lover 

might a breast. From this touch

Challah rises—my creation. 

If it were the same each week

—so many and so many cups of flour, 

a dash of salt, and behold, a standard loaf 

manufactured like a car part—

the bread would be a lesser offering.

A gift to God must bear a human mark:

the bursting seams of an under-proofed braid, 

the occasional char. And then the interplay

of dough and world—the size of the eggs,

the warmth of the kitchen, the age of the leaven.  

When I nip off a piece and say the blessing, 

I praise the God who brings forth bread 

from the Earth. But challah is collaboration.  

Bodiless, the Lord cannot make it, nor can I

without the bounty of His imaginary hands.

Miriam’s work has previously been published in Poetry, Berru, Salmagundi, CCAR, and other journals.  She was the winner of the 2019 Anna Davidson Rosenberg Award for poems on the Jewish experience.  Her chapbook, “The Scientist’s Wife,” was published by Finishing Line Press in 2021.

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“Does God Have to Take Attendance?”  *

* Author’s note: This poem was inspired by Mayim Bialik, a Modern Orthodox Jew, star of “The Big Bang Theory,” whose character Amy said, “I don’t object to the concept of a deity, but I am baffled by the notion of one that takes attendance.”

by Mel Glenn (Brooklyn, NY)

In my constant back-and-forth with God,

throwing questions up at the sky,

I do not expect answers,

but would be appeased by some sign

that my queries are at least received.

What if I obey 612 rules instead of 613?

What if I hold one Seder, not two?

What if I do not go to shul

each and every Saturday?

Does God have to take  attendance?

I have a lot more than Four Questions.

Do I need the decisions of rabbis

to tell me how to run my life?

Do I need the voices of the congregation

to emphasize the fact I am a Jew?

Does a faithful adherence to ritual

bring me closer to the presence of God?

Does He even care?

God, it’s me, Mel.

Are you even listening?

I am standing outside the synagogue

wondering if my attendance is required.

Is it mandatory I attend, or is it good

enough that I remain standing humbly,

asking my questions in Your sight?

Mel Glenn, the author of twelve books for young adults, is working on a poetry book about the pandemic tentatively titled Pandemic, Poetry, and People. He has lived nearly all his life in Brooklyn, NY, where he taught English at A. Lincoln High School for thirty-one years. You can find his most recent poems in the YA anthology, This Family Is Driving Me Crazy, edited by M. Jerry Weiss. If you’d like to learn more about his work, visit: http://www.melglenn.com/

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And Still

by Merri Ukraincik (Edison, NJ)

I see the beauty, though of late, only by half.

With one eye open,

the other shut,

I peer through the slats

of the window blinds,

my breath fogging up the glass.

Obscured, but there.

The beauty, I mean.

The Shabbos sky still shimmers.

Even the apples go on sweetening

in a bowl on the kitchen table. 

Then by mistake, I lift the lid on

the second eye and the ugly,

scene by scene, tears at my heart

until it’s tattered like an afghan

come unfurled, one thread at a time.

Yet my fraying Jewish soul still believes,   

G-d has not given up on us,

the smoke and ash notwithstanding.

Hope remains – for something more,

for the good that may still come

in this threadbare world, in our time.

Because unless you close both eyes

and seal the slats of the blinds,

the beauty is hard to miss.  

Merri Ukraincik is an award-winning writer whose work has appeared in numerous publications online and in print. She is the author of the book I Live. Send Help.: 100 Years of Jewish History in Images from the JDC Archives. Her memoir Wondrous Things: On Finding Joy and Faith in the Messy Business of Being Human is in search of a publisher. Follow her at https://merriukraincik.substack.com/ or on Facebook.

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The Big Ask

by Rich Orloff (New York, NY)

To God
To my ancestors
To anyone who will listen
I ask and pray for this:

Bless me with a peace
That’s deeper than happiness
That makes room for profound sorrow
That accepts pain and loss
That’s not dependent on good news

Bless me with a peace
That comforts me when I feel anguish
That steadies me when I feel uncertain
That expands me when I think small
That finds a way through my fiercest resistance

Bless me with a peace
That stretches beyond my horizons
That heals even if I can’t explain why
That offers delight as an everyday gift
That allows me to see blessings

Bless me with a peace
That is a refuge from torment
That is an oasis from yearning
That is a sanctuary from trauma
That transcends all else
But never denies all else

Bless me with a peace
That renews my gratitude for life
And that I can access
Every time I let you in

Rich Orloff writes both poems and plays.  His poems have been published in The Poet, Fragments (published by T’ruah), and Fresh Words magazines, and they’ve been presented at churches and synagogues, performed in theaters and schools, read at meditation and yoga groups, and spoken at events both lofty and intimate.  Rich’s plays include the Purim-themed musical comedy Esther in the Spotlight (performed so far in New York, Toronto and Tel Aviv), the comedic revue OY! (over 50 productions in the United States – and one in Bulgaria), and many more, of all lengths, styles and subjects.  Rich’s plays have had over two thousand performances on six continents – and a staged reading in Antarctica.  More at www.richorloff.com

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Watch and Wait: A Jewish Mindfulness Practice

By Susan Spector (Cornville, AZ)

You. Have. A. Brain. Tumor.

Five words and everything changed. I became a patient on a Watch and Wait protocol I now call WaWa.

And that’s what I’m doing today. I stalk the online portal, waiting for my test results. The radiology report shows up just before bedtime. 

I skim over my three favorite words: the first one is “stable.” The second and third words go together: “grossly unremarkable.” Kinahora. That’s what my Yiddish-speaking Jewish grandmother would say, invoking the evil eye, not wanting to jinx the good news. 

I search out the fear, sensing I’ll find it, but not in a mindful, meditative or particularly grateful way. That gratitude I once believed would last forever, where did it go? 

FLAIR hyper intensities in cerebral white matter and white matter lesions.” And there it is. Something new. Something to be afraid of.

I chug my water, determined to flush away the gad, short for gadolinium, the intravenous contrast used earlier in the day. I want the heavy metal poison out of my body.  Gad is an injected light source used to illuminate what’s lodged deep inside my brain. Its atomic symbol is Gd, an acronym my tradition uses as a placeholder for the sacred nature of God’s ineffable and unpronounceable name. I contemplate a quote from the Holy Rascal teacher, Rabbi Rami Shapiro, “God is real and everything we say about God is made up.” It’s a mystery how the gad knows just where to go in my body. 

Ironically, I met the light of the Infinite Mystery, what the mystics call the Ein Sof, through the rogue cells deep inside my brain.  

When I broke out in a sweat on one of my bi-annual retreats inside the big magnet machine, I listened closely and heard a small voice, over and above the noise of the beast. I lay still.  Inhale, Sh’ma, pause. Exhale Yisrael, pause. Breathe in Adonai, pause. Exhale Eloheinu, pause. Breathe in Adonai, pause. Return the breath to the Source. Exhale, Echad. A six-word Jewish prayer mysteriously appeared. Despite the thrumming, drumming and clanking noise inside the machine, I connected. Partnered with divine energy, everything changed.

I head for an emergency visit to Dr. Google, worried I’m moving toward a life inside an assisted living facility. In the morning, I wake up early with no more clarity than the night before. I grab my coffee, sit down at the table, pull up an empty chair for my partner and anxiously fire up the laptop. I like to be early for the Zoom Room. It dials down the anxiety of meeting with the expert meditation guides. The neurodocs. 

In the beginning, they gave me the mantra for finding my sense of calm and quiet within. They gave me the practice. The WaWa. Now they keep me on track and pull me out of the rabbit holes I can’t seem to avoid. 

The lead meditation Teacher/Neuro-oncologist shows up, wearing a crisp white lab coat and looking radiant on the screen.  She gets right down to business, with her unusual combination of strength, clarity and comforting softness.

“Your MRI looks beautiful. All stable.”

“Yeah, but what are those new white matter lesions?”

She points to highlighted areas of the brain image on her screen share.

“This big white lesion is scar tissue. See how it follows the surgery path where Dr. Yirah did his magic to “let flow occur?” And these other white dots, well, you could call them “blessings of maturity.” 

She’s a poet. She skillfully moves the conversation and the meeting forward. 

“Were you comfortable with the nine-month scan interval or do you want to try and push it out to one year?”

“I don’t know, what do you recommend?”
“I would be comfortable either way.”

I turn to my partner, now sitting beside me at the table.

“What do you think?”

“I’d rather see sooner than later if something’s going to change” he says without

hesitation.

The neurodoc/poet moves the conversation along, directing the question back to me.

 “So, you’re the only one we haven’t heard from, what do you want?”

“Part of me wants to graduate to the annual milestone, but I’m more comfortable with 9 months also.” 

Everyone smiles at each other from their Zoom squares and I finally exhale.

The apprentice meditation teacher enters the Zoom room. He is a resident intern with a clipped data-only voice. 

“White matter lesions, clinically insignificant, 30% of MRI’s, higher in older people.” 

The master meditation teacher enters the Zoom room. The neurosurgeon.
I tell him I spent time last night with Dr. Google, chatting about white matter lesions.

“It’s Watch and Wait, not watch and worry. At least you weren’t consulting with

ChatGPT!” 

The mindfulness. The challenge. Return to the WaWa. 

Return to the breath. 

Susan Spector is a brain tumor survivor who focuses on writing as a path to healing She is a retired educator. Her true education began with her diagnosis at age 62. She is currently at work on a series of essays under the pen name Shoshanah bat Malka, with the working title Reporting Live from the Frontal Lobe. 

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