by Cheryl Savageau (Boston, MA)
all those years I thought
I was doing it for you
your mother, your family
for our child, so he would know
and have a choice
so why this anger
this year without you
when Rosh Hashanah comes
without ceremony
my feeling that without you
I have no right
we reconciled at Passover
bought new dishes
just two place settings
and ate amid packing boxes
now I claim it greedily
your people shall be my people
your G-d, my G-d
our son married
beneath the chuppah
our grandson’s bris
now I light the candles
circle my hands, cover
my eyes, feel the world
shift, raise my eyes
to yours
Good Shabbas, we say
Good Shabbas
my love
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Cheryl Savageau is a convert, and also Native (Abenaki), and her poems are about her first experiences as part of a Jewish family and how she became part of the Jewish people. She has three collections of poetry: Mother/Land, (SALT 2006), Dirt Road Home (Curbstone Press 1995), and Home Country (Alice James, 1992). Her memoir, Out of the Crazywoods, was published in 2020, and her children’s book, Muskrat Will Be Swimming, was first published by Northland in 1996, then in paperback in 2006. This poem is part of a new collection, New Love/Old Love, looking for a publisher. Visit her website to learn more about her life and work: https://cherylsavageaublog.wordpress.com/